last brown bag lunch

i know articles have been written about the "lasts" we face with our children. heart wrenching reminders i've sniffled my way through on more than one occasion...all about how we always mark the "first" milestones our children reach, such as their first tooth and first steps and first words.  rarely do we ever take notice of the "lasts", because most often time passes before we realize the event hasn't repeated itself again, and likely never will.  that is, until it dawns on us.  it's a sappy subject, to be sure.  who would even want to know it was the last time they were reading a bedtime story to their child, or washing their child's hair in the tub, or holding hands through the mall, or cutting up food on a dinner plate, or offering comfort after a scary dream.  of course i want to cherish each moment , each occasion (which i'm not always successful at), but i don't think i'd want to know each and every "last" as it occurred.  i'd be a mess of tears at least once a week with all the changes that happen around here on a regular basis.  nobody wants that.   

anyway, last week i happened to see Joelle grab her lunch to head out and catch the bus for her last school day, and it just kind of hit me! this was the very last time i would be making her brown bag lunch for school.  after fifteen years of sending her off with a lunch i'd prepared (i know it might surprise some~ the fact that i still make their lunches, but honestly, this is more for my mental sanity than anything.  type A, remember??  :) whatever works, right?), i realized out of the blue that this particular morning was her last.  her last ever school morning before post-secondary school changes everything.  i admit i felt nostalgic about the whole thing, but no tears or sadness yet.  more excited for her and the adventures ahead and baffled at how those years sped by...King's Kids nursery school is still so fresh in my mind.  she loved it...all those wet paintings that you tried so hard to keep off the car upholstery and pasta art and gooey glitter glue crafts with her own handwritten name in the corner......sigh.... 

i was grateful she cooperated for a picture.  i think the moment resonated with her as well.  happy to capture this "last".

an awesome link...

...but not just any link...such a beautiful one, posted on Facebook this week by a friend.  

i had to share it.  so moving and miraculous.  the very best kind of link, i'd say....

here it is!

enjoy, and pass it along if you wish!  it's that good!  

fathers...earthly and heavenly

well, this doesn't happen often, now does it?? :)  it has been several years now since i sat to jot down a second post within a week.  no time mostly, but this week i felt the urge to compile a father's day mention after viewing the most adorable video ever.  the video, in all its sweetness, will be linked at the end (did i mention it is adorable??!).  so read on and click the link at the bottom for an overdose of cute and truth and joy all within just a couple minutes.  pure delight, i promise. 

as i was saying, this video i saw online got me to thinkin'.  about fathers.  earthly fathers and my heavenly father.  and how the men closest to me are a human display, however imperfect, of love that is loyal and steadfast and true.  a presence in my life, from my beginnings as a small baby girl to the adult woman i am today, that models the amazing way my heavenly father loves me.  of course, our human condition means we are all flawed, and not a father (or mother) exists that hasn't let down their child in one way or another.  overall, however, i have the amazing privilege of witnessing multiple men around me....my own dad, my father-in-law, my husband, my brother, my male friends....all slugging away at the role of "dad", doing their obvious best to honour their families with a solid commitment and authenticity and character and selflessness.  how many people can say that has been their experience?  it is one of the most intangible and cherished life gifts i've been given.  it has formed my core, shaped my overall life perspective and carved a security for my future.  i am immensely blessed.  

to you, Jeffrey :), i am in awe of your beautiful compassionate heart.  as i see the display of love you offer to the vulnerable ones around us, most recently the baby we've been blessed to care for, i am moved by the sacrificial way you are "all in".  less hesitant than even i to invest in the hard ways.  to show fatherly love to those in need and embrace all the challenges that come with the task.  by far your most attractive quality, and the list is long (just ask you, right? :))  i always knew you were a keeper.  i'm happy to have kept you.  

to those without a father figure in their life, to those who have only known hurt and rejection and pain from the hands of their father, my heart aches for you as Father's Day approaches.  it is difficult for me to process how such disappointment exists for so many.  i can only imagine the void that leaves in your heart and life...it isn't fair.  it isn't right.  we were never meant to live in a fallen world where fathers let down children.  i'm so sorry you carry this load.  the beautiful hope contained in the short video clip below (which is sooooo adorable!!! :)) is that God, your heavenly father, wants to be that steadfast immovable presence in your life.  your "go to", your lifeline, your father to trust and lean on.  He has been so in my life~ and i wish the same for you...
so thanks to all the earthly dads who are kickin' it each and every day,  thank-you God for your unconditional love and care in my life~ for all the ways i see and even the ways i cannot see.
and, a few pics of some awesome dads who i love to the moon and back...

they constantly offer their expertise to us, as a busy family.  gardening, pruning, rolling the lawn, washing windows, fixing screens, making the exterior of our home look pretty, etc...

fixing pool pump problems, getting my dryer up and running again, not to mention the dehumidifier, car problems, the air conditioner, etc....

 
we are so very grateful and just really appreciate you!

and Jeff, pool wrestling in Florida...what's not to love?

and finally, here's the link....fatherless to fatherfull.
Happy Father's Day!

prom

Joelle and Jacob...

his prom...

June 2016

good memories for them, so (with permission) i thought they were worth noting here.

releasing his inner "Sears model"

it's been awhile since a Sears catalog has graced my coffee table.  but as a little girl, flipping through the new catalogs that arrived each season was a highlight.  oddly, i remember it so well.  even the smell of the pages as i turned them (i'm a weirdo.  just say it).  i loved looking at the girl's clothes, the summer bathing suits, the formal dresses, the furniture, and for some reason, the bedding/comforter sets.  i guess it seemed to hold promise of new and treasured things.  also, our family shopped at Sears, so the items contained within those pages seemed accessible and attainable.  a clear childhood memory.  but i digress, yet again...

my kids hardly even know what a "Sears pose" is.  still, on the night of the recent wrestling banquet when Hudson presented to me in the kitchen all clean and handsome, i asked him to give me his best Sears pose.  this is what i got.  

   not bad, not bad...